Someone’s trying to tell me something. #thankful

Someone’s trying to tell me something. #thankful

Bae be hookin it up! Fried catfish and mashed potatoes!

Bae be hookin it up! Fried catfish and mashed potatoes!

Alameda, I love you.

Alameda, I love you.

Lunch with these little ones. LOL @erinaaahh

Lunch with these little ones. LOL @erinaaahh

I love you guys to pieces!!! Thanks for always giving me great BDay celebrations! #anothersuccessfulnight #reysshirt

I love you guys to pieces!!! Thanks for always giving me great BDay celebrations! #anothersuccessfulnight #reysshirt

Besties last night. :))) love em!

Besties last night. :))) love em!

It’s all wonderful, but I would rather have it say, “you’re better off finding a man who will make you fall in love with your self even more.” #fortheladies

It’s all wonderful, but I would rather have it say, “you’re better off finding a man who will make you fall in love with your self even more.” #fortheladies

Someday I wish to live in a way where it feels ideal. A time where I don’t feel like I’m settling for the situation I’m in. I want to love the idea of living because its all for the right reasons. I miss waking up and believing that the day will only be wonderful.

Today and the days before, I feel the opposite. I wake up hoping nothing else goes wrong since nothing feels right. My heart is slowly losing beat for everything that once was my world and blissful joy. I’m not in love anymore no matter how hard I try.

Love isn’t how it used to be. It isn’t as exciting, as romantic, as thoughtful as it once was. It feels to be dead with reoccurring themes of exhausting resuscitation. There’s nothing about it that is worth living for when it only exists as a thing that can be forgotten.

It can only get better. One day, I hope my soul finds a way out of this misery to live the life that I’ve longed for. I will only be surrounded by people who want those same things for me. I want to be stronger to be able to have all that I’ve asked for. I want to live.

This isn’t a dream anymore, it’s my reality, my nightmare. This moment is when I’m learning all the things I don’t want in my life and all those that I value more than before. My heart is growing tired yet strong as it realizes all that it wants and is deserving of.

I want to live longer to fall in love again.

I’m my own Romeo & I couldn’t say no.

I’m my own Romeo & I couldn’t say no.

"What he say?" Face of #Wiggles to @sftateofmind LOL pardon the Wiggie-hack. I missed my pup..

"What he say?" Face of #Wiggles to @sftateofmind LOL pardon the Wiggie-hack. I missed my pup..

Hey kid, you’re taking up the entire bed! #Wiggles #reunitedanditfeelssogood

Hey kid, you’re taking up the entire bed! #Wiggles #reunitedanditfeelssogood

Thank you for all the BIRTHDAY greetings and celebrations. San Diego, you were amazing! Please take care of my baby @erinaaahh on her first year of college…

Thank you for all the BIRTHDAY greetings and celebrations. San Diego, you were amazing! Please take care of my baby @erinaaahh on her first year of college…

This is the best burrito place. #luchalibre

This is the best burrito place. #luchalibre